Letter to my Little One

Dear Everly,

My little girl.  Today is so special.  It was one year ago, today, that I found out you existed.  Ever since then my life has been turned upside down in the best way.  It’s crazy to think that one year ago you were just a twinkle in my eye, and though I dreamed of holding you in my arms, even my wildest dreams could never compare to meeting you.

At almost 4 months old, I’ve watched you change so much.  You’ve grown out of outfits and surprised us with your strength overnight.  It feels like I just woke up from a long nap and all of the sudden you’re not the tiny, sleeping newborn that I carried home from the hospital that muggy day in August.

I’ll admit, I’ve laid in bed at night going through my phone and looking through pictures from those early days with giant, proud Mama tears flowing down my cheeks.  It’s all going by so fast but at the same time it’s pure joy.  And this is only the beginning.  We have so much ahead of us, I know that this small period of time we’ve experienced is just a tiny sliver of the pie.

We have so many fun experiences ahead of us!  Spending time in the kitchen baking cookies on cold winter nights, making French Toast breakfasts on Sunday mornings, playing dress up in my closet, taking family vacations to the beach and beyond, and experiencing all of those precious “firsts” with you.

I know you have many closets of clothes left to outgrow in your life, and that I’ll watch these little daily milestones turn into first steps and then first days of school and then later on, first love, and hopefully I’ll be there to watch you become a Mama too.  I will always look back and cherish these early days, and even when you turn into the young woman you are destined to become, know that I will always keep this memory of you, as a tiny, snuggly infant, safely anchored away in a deep place in my heart.  You are my sunshine, my sky, my world, my everything.

Your Mama

15 Weeks Old

Can ya’ll believe it?  Our little birdie is 15 weeks old.   I just love these pictures we took the other day.  She was happy to dress up in a new onesie from Grandma Ellen (check out the Boston Terrier that looks just like our own Leyla Jane!) and ADORABLE handmade beanie from her Aunt Cheryl.  Don’t you just love Grandma’s and Auntie’s?  Everly thinks they are the cat’s pajamas.  Here’s a little look into the world of 15-Week-Olds these days:

Milestones: Talking, using those hands, and big, jolly, belly laughs!  We’ve been getting little tastes of this lately, but just the other day it’s as if a switch went off and things have really shown improvement.  Everly loves laughing at her Mama, reaching out and touching Daddy’s face, and grabbing everything she can and trying to take a big gobble out of it!

Sleeping habits: Evie is still getting up a few times for a couple of feedings, but for the most part we’ve established a schedule and she sleeps from about 8 pm to about 7 am.  Mama doesn’t mind getting up with her though – it’s our special time together.

What’s new: We’re so excited to be planning Everly’s baptism, which will be taking place next month at St. Luke the Evangelist.  Now, we need to get this little chunker a christening gown and plan a party!

Just around the corner: Everly’s first Thanksgiving!  Not that she can enjoy turkey & yams with us, but it’s still a first.  And for Marty and I, this Thanksgiving is sentimental because it was Thanksgiving time last year that we told our parents & siblings our little secret about having a bun in the oven.

Looking forward to: We’ll be starting cereal soon and we can’t wait to see her reaction! (Marty and I are big foodies ourselves, so we’re thinking Everly is going to love the stuff as much as we do).  Hopefully, we can instill good eating habits in her at an early age.

Until next time, take care!


Meet Everly’s Alter Ego

Ever since Cordelia can remember she has been saving up her quarters and dimes so she can get dolled up every week and really cut it loose down at the local VFW’s Bingo night.  Last week she came home with 17 dollars… and a nice buzz to go with it!  When asked what brings her luck, her reply was her weekly trips to the beauty parlor, cold beers, and of course her grandkids.

Ever since this post I knew that some sort of wig/hairpiece would end up on our child at some point – and I laugh every time I see these!  I’ve actually been meaning to put these up for a while now.  Doesn’t she look like she should be on an episode of Roseanne?


Thinking about this life…

It goes by so, so fast.  One day you’re here and then before you know it, a simple blink of your eyes and you’re somewhere else.  I remember being 7 years old and confiding to my best friend that I was going to have 3 kids by the time I was 25.  25 seemed so far away…  and here I am 30 years old.

It’s so easy to get caught up in the hustle and bustle of the everyday grind.

Wake up early, get ready for work, feed baby, kiss baby goodbye, coffee, emails, meetings, put out fires, try to stand out in the corporate world.  Come home, enjoy every waking second you have with husband and baby, go to sleep, wake up and do it all over again.  Since I’ve gone back to work from maternity leave, I’ve found myself letting these daily operations get the best of me and seeing how fast this life is passing me by.

That’s why I’m trying to decompress.  I’m  trying to not let the little things that normally break me down get the best of me.  I’m trying to put my anxiety-ridden, perfectionist, type-A self in the backseat and I’m letting the Mama and Wife in me take the wheel from now on.  Now, at the crack of dawn when I wake up and crawl down to the tip of my bed and peer into the waking eyes of that baby as the sun creeps up, I take in every golden moment.  I relish every second.  I forget about everything else.  I get lost in her smile.  I beg for that moment to last forever and to never forget.

Life goes by so fast.  And it’s so easy to get caught up with all the hectic, insignificant things that come up.  If I can give you one piece of advice from this post, it is to never take anything for granted.  At the end of the day, I come home, hang up my coat, and take my problems, debt, and everything that went wrong that day and push it aside to make room for my family.  I push it to the back of my mind.  Because at the end of the day, at the end of this life, those things just don’t matter.

When I lay my baby down to sleep and curl up in bed with my husband and dogs and close my eyes at night, I know I have it all.  What an amazing, peculiar, and intense feeling to know that you are loved.  I am forever grateful to have all of this.


First Halloween – Look Who’s a Turtle!

Everly’s first Halloween was here and gone before we knew it.  We enjoyed the day by lounging around the house in PJ’s and enjoying our little one (did I ever tell you how much I LOVE her?).  We played with Ev and her toys, Mama went grocery shopping, Papa made Buffalo Chicken, Mama and Ev took a nap on the couch while Papa watched football (I get the best sleep of my life when football is on in the background, evidently so does Everly.  Like mother like daughter!).

Around 6, we bundled Everly up in her turtle costume and made some random visits – to Grandma Ellen & Grandpa Bub’s in Richmond Heights, and then to Uncle John & Aunt Jessica’s and to Grandma Lin’s in St. Louis Hills.  Everly was a good sport and her costume kept her nice and toasty in the cold – big thanks to Grandma Lin for making it!

We saw a lot of super cute costumes this year, which got me all sorts of excited about taking Everly trick-or-treating next year and all the years to come.  I can’t wait to start our own traditions, even dressing up in Mama & Daddy costumes and going door-to-door collecting treats and towing Everly (and maybe even some other little ones) along in a big red wagon.  We’ll come home and build a fire, let Everly get a little high on sugar, and Marty & I will sneak pieces of candy from her giant plastic pumpkin.  So much to look forward to… and I can’t wait!

I already have ideas brewing for next year’s costume, but we have a while til we get there.  Until then, enjoy the turtle pics!