Moments to Freeze in Time


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Most nights our house echoes with the banter of two teeny girls playing with toys, bare feet padding down the hardwood floors, each chasing after the other one and usually trying to retrieve a toy that one sister has claimed.  Two tiny hands lock on the toy and before I know it, both of them are red-faced and trying to pull it away from the other one, high-pitched squeals and eyes welling up with tears.  Sometimes there is even hair pulling (Milly, that would be all you) and there is almost always crying involved.

Usually, it ends with me just taking the toy or giving Everly the same rundown she’s been hearing since Milly could take stuff: “She’s just a baby.  She doesn’t know how to share yet.  Just give it to her.  Be a big girl.”  And she does, reluctantly, and I wonder if it’s wrong, what I’m doing.

Some days I break up more fights than I can count, and I wonder if you both know, amid all the drama, just how sacred your sisterhood really is.

Tonight, as I was putting Everly to bed, she brought up the beach and how she is excited to go back this summer.  We talked about going into the ocean on the big pink raft with Ganny, eating popsicles by the pool, and how much fun we were going to have.  I mentioned her pink floatie and how important it was for us to be safe by the water this year.

“Mommy. I don’t want Milly to go by the water,” she said, her voice taking a serious tone.  Thinking she was already not wanting to share the ocean with her little sis, I explained that Milly was going to swim with us this year.

“I just don’t want anything bad to happen to her,” her voice cracked softly.  “I’m just worried about her and I know she’s gonna fall in the water, and I just don’t want anything bad to happen to her!”  Before I could say anything else, she burst into tears and hugged me tightly, tears streaming down her face.  I shushed her and held her close as she calmed down, explaining that she was a good big sister, and that it’s OK to be worried about Mil but that she was going to be OK, and that we should always watch out for her.

Trying to keep from laughing out loud or bursting into tears myself, this was one of those moments where I just thought: “Freeze this moment right now.  Never forget this.”

Dear Everly & Amelia, I am sure there are many more arguments with each other in your futures, but my only wish is that you never stop looking out for each other, and that you always remember, that even at 3 1/2 and 16 months old, you were each other’s world.

Love,
Your Mom

And Then She Was One…

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Dear Amelia,

I can’t believe it has really been a whole year since you’ve joined our family.  An entire year since we brought your tiny self home from the hospital swaddled in the cold November to meet a very excited Big Sister and two very curious pups.  We’ve rocked, shushed, kissed, snuggled, giggled, cried, had many sleepless nights, and smiled our way through 365 days of Amelia June, and life honestly has never been better.

In those early morning hours, sunlit afternoons, and late nights, I’ve found in you, a new best friend, a new reason to smile, to say yes, and to be my absolute best self each and every day.  Your fierce heart and fiery spirit are what makes you so special, and my wish is that you will always hold onto that spark!  Your Dad and I know that like your sister, you have such a purpose here, and that you will do wonderful things on this Earth.

On the day we brought you home, you peered up to your Big Sister with such intrigue and haven’t stopped since.  She loves you so much, and it makes me so proud and happy that you entered this world with a best friend for life.   Happy birthday, little princess; I hope all your wishes come true.  We love you so, Milly.

Love,
Mom, Dad, and Everly

The Girls. 30 Months and 3 Months.

One of my favorite things about this blog is logging on at night to look through my archives at some of my earliest posts, when Everly was just a wee little thing and I did a little monthly-or-so update on how she was growing.  Since it’s usually a rare occasion when I get the chance to write, I decided it’s probably best to do a little rundown of both girls.  So here we go…

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Dear Everly- it is the eve of your half birthday.  You turn 2 and a half tomorrow, and you are one of the most intelligent little ladies I know.  Your favorite things these days are your two bears – Elvis and Purple Bear – who accompany you pretty much anywhere and everywhere you go.  You love chocolate milk, dancing, Cinderella, and makeup!  You’re a pretty independent little girl, though you still love to sleep in Mommy’s bed any chance you can (I love it too) and you are such a proud big sister.  You have not shown an ounce of jealousy when it comes to Amelia, and you’re always kissing her and gushing over her every chance you get.  It’s all happening so fast, my little love, you grow up a little bit more each day.  You are the happiest person your Dad and I know, our Sunshine girl.

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Dear Amelia – it’s hard to imagine that you turn 3 months old this week.  You are 100% perfection; a bundle of sweetness that I thank my lucky stars for each and every day.  Your smiles are the best thing ever.  Sometimes I’ll be nursing you, and all the sudden, you’ll stop.  When I peek down at you, you’re just gazing up at me with the happiest, biggest smile I’ve ever seen.  It’s the best feeling ever.   When I’m having a rough day, I just think about that smile and all my worries fade away.  These days, you pretty much love two things – nursing and naked time!  It’s true.  When you’re cranky, sometimes we just strip you down, and all the sudden, you stop crying and start smiling.  Works like a charm every time. 🙂  And your big sister, of course.  You find her more interesting than any toy around.  I have a feeling you girls are going to be very close.

Love,
Your Very Proud Mama

Dear Amelia, You Are Two Months Old

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Weight: 12 lbs. 12 oz.
Hair: It gets lighter and lighter each day and we are seeing a little hint of RED in there too!
Eyes: The bluest of blue.
Milestones: Smiling up a storm and soooo close to rolling over.

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Dear little Amelia,

You turned two months old yesterday and are growing like a little flower.  Ever since you first lifted your head up at the hospital when you were just a day old, we knew you were going to be a strong little thing, and we were right.  These days, you love to lie on your back and stare up at objects, usually a toy or a ceiling fan, kicking those little legs in excitement. Our favorite is when you flash that gorgeous smile that us.  Your eyes will sparkle and you’ll coo little “oohs” and “ahhs” with such purpose… I have no doubt that you and I will always have a lot to say to each other, and I can’t wait for those days.

Your big sister is incredibly smitten with you.  Every chance she gets, she is peeking over my shoulder as I nurse you, or asking if she can help care for you, or putting her little face up to yours to plant a tiny sister kiss on your cheek.  The other day, Everly was taking a bath and I decided to dip you in with her for a few moments.  Everly thought it was the neatest thing ever.  While you’re much too tiny now, I see plenty of bubble baths with you two in the near future.

My little love, you bring so much joy to this family of ours.  Thank you so much for choosing us to be yours.

Love,
Your Mama