Letter to a Little Girl

“No one else will ever know the strength of my love for you. After all, you’re the only one who knows what my heart sounds like from the inside.” – Unknown

Dear Little Dreamer,

In case I ever forget to tell you, I wanted you to know that:

Every night when I put Everly to bed, we lie in the stillness of her bedroom, with her tiny hands on my belly, while you squirm around this way and that.

Your Daddy and I finally decided on your name, and ever since I’ve been scribbling it in my notebook and stamping your tiny initials (A.J) on the back of random pieces of paper lying around the house.

You are getting stronger and stronger each and every day.  Sometimes, your kicks and rolls literally take my breath away.  Carrying you has been amazing and perfect.

Your Daddy and I have big plans for this little family of ours and promise to give you the best life that we possibly can.  We’re preparing pretty little things, creating a little space for you in our home, and teaching your older sister what we can about being a big sister.  She’s just as excited as we are to finally meet you.

Your Mama, Daddy, and Big Sister

P.S.  Your Daddy says you’re going to be spicy… We can’t imagine what could possibly be spicier than Ev, but we’re excited to find out!

Dear Everly

The first day of February brought with it a huge blizzard complete with freezing rain, sleet, ice and snow. I was all set to work from home when I got word that our St. Louis office was going to be closed due to the winter storm, which meant good things for Miss Everly and I.

We both stayed in pajamas for most of the day and played with toys, read books, took silly pictures, and even baked chocolate chip cookies. Everly wore cloth diapers the whole day and I didn’t even have to look at my breast pump one time. We snuggled on the couch and she drifted off to sleep in my arms. I can’t tell you how good it felt for my little girl to fall asleep on me and to feel her soft breath and little coos in my ear, and even better, to see the look of surprise and happiness on her face when she awoke and realized her Mom was there and had been with her the whole time she was asleep.

It was nice pretending to be a Stay-at-Home Mama for the day, and as much as I’m dreaming about the sunny days of Spring, I wouldn’t mind the occasional snow day once and a while.


Dear Everly

Dear Everly,

We saw your teeny tiny footprint last night and spent the rest of the night staring at my big shiny belly and wishing for just one more glimpse of your little body parts.

We’ve been waiting for all of these months, dying to meet you, and seeing your little toes pressed against my skin brought a shocking realization to light.  Soon you’ll be here, and while that excites me to pieces, it’s also a little sad because I know that your safety and well being will be out of my control.

For nine months, I’ve nourished you while you’ve grown into the baby that you are now.  I’ve made sure that you received the best nutrients, vitamins, oxygen, stimulation, and environment within my power.  I’ve taken good care of us, getting enough rest, exercise, and support, and thoroughly enjoyed every second of it.  I’ve carried you and given up my body in order to keep you safe, protected, and nurtured, and now it’s almost time for you to come into the world.

You’ve been with me every second for the past nine months and now that it’s almost time to set you free, I can’t help but be a little bittersweet about it.   I guess that’s the mother coming out in me: happy to see you on your little way, but concerned for your well being and knowing, deep down, that I will have to let go a little bit each day.

What makes me happy is that your Daddy and I can’t wait to meet you.  We have so much in store for you – just wait!  We’ve laid in our bed at night and had so many conversations of all the things we want to do with you, places we will definitely be taking you, and experiences that we want you to have (so many blog posts to come on this!).  One thing is for sure, you are coming into a house with a lot of LOVE and that will always be a constant in your life.

So, whether it takes you another day to get here or another 3 ½ to 4 weeks, we’ll be waiting and ready to start your little life out in a BIG way.  We love you more than anything.


Your Mama and Daddy